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Friday, October 23, 11:13 PM
okay yanquan told me to post about our outing on thurs.. so here i am =] anw we went out with siyan to bugis :] i think this is kind of my first official shopping-kind-of-date with friends haha.. bought a jacket for $10.. but it's a bit scratchy.. no wonder the shop said no trying.. if not no one will buy le. oh well :] siyan wore heels cos she needed to wear formal shoes to apply for visa at some place.. so she tottered around in high heels and couldn't feel blood flowing in them after some time cos her legs were damn tired.. hahaha i asked yanquan how are high heels like then she was telling me during graces it's like people will take it off once they have the chance to.. and when u wear them it's like naturally you will feel the need to have good posture if not you might fall forwards when you slouch or sth.. haha i don't have a good impression of high heels at all since young.. it's quite an irritating invention though.. wish wearing sneakers was considered formal. and siyan spends money very easily =P there's a cheng2 yu3 for this right.. hui1 huo4 ru2 ___?? sigh. higher chi o lvl, i don't like you. and i really don't wanna get back my chi paper. anw yah cos we were at this shop, then i was trying on sth. then siyan asked me why u dun wanna buy? but to me (and yanquan) isn't it shld go back, tell your mum you saw sth, bring your mum there and then well, shun4 bian4 let your mum pay for u ;) so i dunno what's my pnt here, but yes there's this difference lah:] well anw, enjoyed myself tremendously:D Today was dreading trng like ___. was actually quite xian mu peishan cos she like going out everyday.. just relax. but actually today's hwachong trng was really fun :D we played squash, basketball, touch rugby, floorball, tennis-ball-dog-n-bone.. haha damn fun! and i was tyco too :D so happy haha.. i scored an amazingly tyco goal for floorball! yay! haha i feel so dumb :] but it's ok:D but i'm worried cause i can't go for every wed's trng, which will be fitness training and conditioning.. and i'm already the most unfit person le. sigh.. even though i run by myself, i don't think it really helps me. maybe i'm running wrongly... too slow? too relaxed? it seems to only serve as a psychological comfort, making me feel "safe" that at least the next trng i won't die so fast. but it's very hard to catch up with the rest.. haiz why like that leh..i tried. i couldn't. next was sneakers trng.. haha evelyn and i were superrrrrrrr tempted to pon!! but okay we are guai1 netballers and we survived through! well done evelyn tan :D was feeling very awkward and stressed during trng.. cos sneakers is like the top netball club.. and everyone's so good.. and only evelyn and i were "juniors".. then the rest are seniors who are very comfortable already.. but everytime must get into groups of 3 or sth to do some drill, it's damn weird.. and i grouped with 2 seniors whom I was very scared of... and they are really really pro. but i'm glad i survived aahaha make them seem like monsters. then while during the down the court thingy waiyee was kind of telling me my mistakes and everything.. hey i wasn't emotiionally affected. but my tear glands decided to get active.. but thanks jamie for encouraging me :] and sharon was really nice and friendly too.. chatted with me and everything.. then when we were split into two teams to play full court, i was very lucky to be in a group of nice seniors.. wow they really touched me but how much they cared.. thank you very very much :] i'm sorry i screwed up on the court, so damn blur. sigh. isit cos too long nv play? but i shall not use that as an excuse. all the way qingying :] and wanna dedicate this paragraph to jayme and charlene, cause they've been such great motivators and influenced me to study hard for my exams. i should feel so lucky that i don't have full o lvls (only higher chi) and we have signposts for some subjects.. i don't really think we are 'independent' learners since we ask the teachers until we can spot qns and study only a few topics . when we take a lvls, we are going to die... x( i think without their influence, i will only study half as hard as i did (and i think my results alr not so good for eoys). so THANK YOU JAYME AND CHARLENE :D yall are gonna do well for o lvls okay, have faith in both of you :] though it always seem scary and like time suddenly passes too fast for revision, but 3 weeks is nothing compared to the long holiday yall will get after this. so just put in everything you've got =] haha wow this is long =] good night. in the end, it's a happy day anyway! Tuesday, September 22, 8:37 PM
feel so sian now.. so xian4 mu4 teri already finish her exams! how come our math exam and their math exam so different one..they only got differentiation!!!!..damn=[ and congrats to jayme and charlene for completing their prelims today hahaha. and my sis also has no school for the next 6-7 days... haiya why does it feel like only ny ppl are stressing up now? hmm i just realised i am very not prepared for exams.. mentally and also my revision process... i thought i started quite early.. but actually i slacked off in between then in the end.. IH is a big headache. I just cant write essays =[ and memorising 4 topics worth of notes doesn't seem very worth it leh. 0.5 weightage?? why must study more than my science subjects?? maybe i should stick to science stream next time.. sigh. jiayou da jia ! actually exams is only 8 days out of the 3 wks. so it isn't a lot :] so we can do this! very soon we will party and mug for chi o lvl then we are free free free~~~!!!! rah.. and i think we should just have selfstudy periods... cos no use asking us to do rev papers when we don't even have a chance to revise first.. physics is horrible. chinese is horribly terrible. im suppose to be typing IH notes now. must continue to type. neck pain. squinting my tired eyes although it's not even 9. jiayou. Saturday, August 15, 9:19 AM
press on 410-ers and everyone else who's dying :] anw ytd i felt happy, though before my first trng i was feeling very sian. but after the first trng at hc then felt quite refreshed.. and evelyn tan was feeling excited and happy for the next trng haha;] then we started with dog-n-bone and it lasted for quite long.. yay dog-n-bone is nice ^_^ it's like playing court! & i managed to snatch in some balls from some opponents then i heard someone say small hands can grab better hahaha i don't think so x] anw fast forward to playing court at the end of trng.. my feeds were quite gd for the second game bumblebees(my team) played :] but what if i can't keep it up for the next internal league game? =/ and i think running from mon-thurs helps me play much better :D i shall do that more often! & i intercepted a ball while playing WD hehe it's quite fun to play WD sometimes :D so ytd i felt quite happy bout my performance :] which is quite rare..i shall try to keep it up :] and ytd was funfair also... a bit sian.. cos it was quite short and small-scaled.. and my karaoke idea didn't work out very well either haha nvm :P and i didn't really like the red-white team idea too... i rather end sch earlier or sth..no offence to the organisers though i'm sure they put in a lot of effort =] but forcing us to stand in the hot sun while some people sit under the tent is not the way to go x( anw, today is charlene's bday! hehe and we're gonna do sth fun later ^_^ HAPPY BDAY CHARLENE! haiya but i can't stop thinking bout the work i have to do... so long :] Saturday, July 25, 9:54 PM
but i decided to update today. so let me talk nonsense :] My Brief History of Crying in pri sch I sometimes cry when I reach home after 6pm.. cause it's like morning session the next day and then like very little time to do my work or to slack. hehe i was a stressed-up kid.. i rmb crying on some friday in pri 5 when i had a list of 17 homework to do for the wkend. now in sec sch, i still cry sometimes when i feel very stressed over a lot of homework and limited time to finish them. and for netball, i cry almost everytime we finish a timed run. I don't want to, but the tears just come... and i know it's very dumb. and i rmb when we had to do the defenders' throw in and attackers have to defend. i just cant catch lobs.. and ms lin was kinda irritated. then i was very afraid that i will cry.. and i know that my teammates also scared that i will. but ms lin will seriously kill me if i did. the tears really going to flow out alr.. but hopefully it wasn't very obvious =/ i rmb that ms lin told me last year that if i continue to cry so easily, she won't put me on the team. i was quite scared after that, then wanted to really stop my tears. the point is: qingying should stop crying. but no matter how hard she tries, she still cries like nobody's business. and she can't stand myself sometimes. sigh =[ how come my blog posts always end up so emo haha oh well. anw been reaching home late almost every fri cos of trng and wed cos i meet up with jayme and charlene =]... and i like walking home at night. it's dangerous but very calm and peaceful.. and it feels like a grown-up thing to do hahaha. last time in pri sch i tot sec sch is really cool and everyone's outgoing and everything. but i guess it's not like that. maybe in jc bah. but i'm not complaining bout my sec sch life :] i think i so long nv post le so my typing of blogposts are very random and unorganised :] anw jiayou for bt2 everyone:] Tuesday, June 16, 10:30 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEISHAN =D i know my present very nice hohoho ;) life is very sian now... and second last week of hol le.. time will just zoom past without us knowing. tmr night got friendly ^_^ happy but also a bit worried lah.. so long never play alr=[ and it's sneakers. i rmb talking to my cousin about being in a club. she said: i'd rather go to a club that's lousier but still okay and be one of the best there, than be in a really good club but be left on the bench. i'm not exactly left on the bench lah but there's this extra stress.. and everyone's so good.. and i'm not tall/have great stamina/very strong or whatever...but must have faith in myself right? haiya nvm i will play with my passion :] just saw the BT2 schedule (it's on lms everyone:]) suddenly like not used to all the tests crammed tgt.. like maths physics geog all on the same day!?? aiyo no wonder we need to start revising now/soon. cos cannot last min le.. and no more excuses like competition. miss those days. Sunday, May 17, 9:07 PM
a timing i was really proud of...really. i don't want to compare but then.. haiz i shld just be happy with it right? i improved from 13:01 last year. and from sec 1 until now this has been my fastest timing. but sometimes the reality is that even if you improve, others are also improving and you'll never catch up. and was emoing about hardwork nv actually leading up to success. sometimes u just need the natural talent part.. it's not that those with natural ability to run faster didn't work hard or as hard cos they really do put in a lot of effort whenever they run too, but somehow they just can do it. how do you hit a 11? how do you hit a 10? how do you hit a 9? i wonder if all my running would actually lead me to a 11 plus. i'll be elated just to get a 11:50.. while others may not even be happy just to get a 11:15 or sth. btw just to add im not talking about anyone in particular..& pls don't be offended or anything if you reading this din get <12:20> and i have doubts about joining netball in jc. cos went down to watch a div semi finals the other day. look at the average height. and it's obvious when you're short cos you can't even get the ball and ppl don't trust your height enough. height is more important than ever. i know with my height i need to be extra strong, extra fast, extra fit, extra stretchy. i have none of these capabilities... im not even averagely fit, strong, stretchy. and i really don't know how fast (or slow?) i am. maybe some people might tell me im fast but compared to those in a div.. im nothing. haiz not suppose to run myself down.. but then i just always think so negatively.. cant help it. i want my netball tmr. stupid IH. Thursday, April 30, 6:39 PM
sigh post-competition feels sucky... i'm rotting away without intense trng and matches. like yq's blog also mentioned that we are so piggish right now.. whole day sit in class.. then aft sch go study u sit there sumore... nv even sweat at all. i feel the muscles turning into fats haha. i wish i had trng.. well at least there's internal league to look forward to :] can't wait for trng next wed!!!!and though i try to run at least twice a week, it's just not enough. and it's damn boring to run and run yet you don't touch the ball. i don't even mind doing drills everyday now.. the absence of netball is hard to get used to. i want to sprint on court again; i want to do those passes again; i want to defend (though i suck at it) on court again; i want to feel the tension going through me whenever we have matches. they always say cherish before it's too late. i don't know if i cherished my court time enough.. i don't really think i have performed my best before. it's like you really want to do your best, but what exactly defines 'your best?' when u perform quite well, you tell yourself u can do better... it's a neverending limit. anw it's a fact that our journey has already ended (other than the closing this sat!) and it's hard to get back as bdiv09 again, the batch that made things happen. sigh.. feeling quite sad now =[ "don't feel sad that it's over, be glad that it happened" so easy to say, so hard to do. Wednesday, April 15, 8:13 PM
ahahahahahahahahaha happy day :D won our semis against ssp :] i think they are fast when they attack :] but i'm glad we manage to prove to everyone that nynb didn't lucky lucky get into top 4. we are top two le leh ^_^ all the way :] it's our very last match in this whole competition :D most didn't think we will win, but we did :] and not just by 1 or 2 :] but my second half WD was the scary scary C that i saw during the U17 trials.. haha she really can block my runs leh i spent a lot of time trying to run down into the goal third.. sigh. shall go work on my one on one skills for attacking and defending :] wheeeee.... really agree that with this team, anything is possible ! Monday, April 13, 4:33 PM
somehow on court i told myself, must not let it get to me. i'm gonna continue playing and focus, but the more i told myself that, the more mistakes i made. felt damn lousy after that... but with all the talks from ms chia, mdm teo, liyi, i guess i feel better. and i better slap myself awake and grow into a stronger player. i don't want to stay as a player who needs lots of concern from others. i must be independant. someone can nv be by your side at all times, only yourself. a good player has great skills. a remarkable player has great skills and mental strength. and now that we have been given a chance, i shall nv waste my court time again. i shall learn from liyi today, and show that the fire in me hasn't died off i'm sorry, but i'm going to make it up Sunday, March 15, 8:56 AM
but actually i think we owe much of our success to our dear coach ms lin =] like she never lost her faith in every single one of us, and she encourages us a lot verbally and through cards. she really knows us inside out.. and she knows what she needs to teach us to overcome any particular opponent...don't you think that is really really pro ? ;] like last time before zonals she made us feel confident of ourselves.. it was as if she planned all the friendlies in a way that we will feel great about ourselves or sth :P anw in conclusion all these is definitely not possible without our great coach! yay :D actually fri was one of my not-so-wen3 performances but next time i shan't let the tension get to me anymore :] im still happy for the team! and the talk at sakura was really nice :] like it's all zhen1 xin1 hua4 and praises for everyone..so very heartwarming :] a few times i felt like dropping tears cos it's quite touching hehe. but anw get well soon to yuxuan, zhengliang, shihui & jiaen (i just realised it's all the defenders). hmm i think defenders easier to sprain ankle or sth.. or actually spraining ankles is usually caused by defenders :P my first point that defenders easily sprain ankles is cos they have to constantly challenge, and that is like stretching their limits. and if they r not careful, it's quite dangerous. but attackers.. just have to land properly and defend a bit too... not much risk of spraining right? then my second point is that attackers usually sprain ankles when the defender comes to challenge. so it's because of the defender so we sprain ourselves. haha sry if i don't make sense :] ytd went for the U17 tryouts.. for fun=] felt so overwhelmed with good players there..actually if u compare like nanhua netballers, rv netballers and ny netballers on the context of individual skills, you can't really say who is better and stuff, cos we are all good players :] so netball is really about playing as a team...and overcoming opponents as a team. haha this sounds quite cliche but i had a deeper realisation of netball ytd :] anw i had fun playing court with great players ^_^ but only hoon, liyi and i went.. quite sad.. like all the other pro players from our team never come cos wanna slp/heal their wounds/got sth on.. actually after playing more and more u get more energised.. i could play another 3 quarts of netball after the tryouts ended ;] and i went home and slept in the aftnoon so it wasn't that bad not to have 8hrs of slp last last night :] P.S : can someone tell me what's the block test schedule? greatly appreciated :] Saturday, March 7, 10:05 AM
and graces sounded like great fun... sigh nvm at least we won convincingly and no regrets ^_^ i shall go see photos from everyone's camera... storytelling was kind of a disaster !! there was extra a lot of people.. like 38 i think.. when normally is about 24 at the most? and that grp of boys is really.. monsters lah. they so young but think damn sick. and i think some kids really need to learn to be quieter and not always raise their hands when they dunno what they r raising for. gosh x( nvm at least i had peishan hehe =] next time i see those boys again i shall ask them to get out if they like that loh. blagh =[ but im happy anyhow :D Saturday, February 21, 8:38 PM
i've been generally happy ^_^ and one thing im glad of was the runs during ytd trng.. just keep pushing yourself.. but i still have negative thoughts before i run.. =S and it's still quite disheartening to see that everyone is around half a round faster than you.. but im quite used to it too and i shan't be affected by it =] and storytelling isn't as fun anymore cos you run out of interesting and fresh ideas.. but we had fun =D [sharp teeth and flower peishan!] and the kids aren't so easily entertained and satisfied . i rmb the first time at bj library was really nice.. and the kids were really responsive.. now u see almost the same kids everytime.. though i'm not complaining :] today was the kaki bukit carnival too! i think carnivals are very fun =D and i think some really improved and put in lots of effort.. well done everyone =] totally no mood for hw now '_' and yq just sent sms saying geog assg is extended to fri yay ! can man4 man4 zuo4 this is a very redundant post :] Sunday, January 25, 12:07 PM
was watching rv vs pioneer.. there was this element of annoyance in me when i watch rv play. cos whenever they made a mistake they might smile about it (not all players but some). yes i know they are at the top already, so can just anyhow play. but this isn't fair to the other schools. these matches can help them gain experience.. and who would want to play against a bunch of jokers who don't respect their opponents? i'm sure they treat their matches seriously.. and they just seem complacent the way they treat the rest of their round 1. and i believe no matter who the opponents are, we should still play to our best. from what i saw, i think pioneer actually played better than them at some parts. cos attitude matters. fight til we win Tuesday, January 13, 9:32 PM
and i was thinking.. if we went to take o lvls, will we score that well? i got a friend who scored 6pnts.. and she's really hardworking so she deserved it.. but made me feel like if it was me i wouldn't get so many A1s.. judding by my results in ny. and this year jayme and charlene will be chionging.. not that i don't need to chiong. but they're chiong for sth national... but im chionging for some stupid eoys in sch. it just feels so unsafe. and jc, you'll just be learning useless stuff that won't help u get a job... but poly courses are much much much much more interesting and work-based. isn't it where we're all going? in 10 yrs to come we all are gonna be working generally right. so who cares if you know how to write ans to a source base qn or sth? i know yanquan posted bout this before but cant rmb what she wrote alr =S but i was feeling quite sad ytd.. thinking that my life is actually very confusing. but maybe i'm just making a mess out of it.. i shld just go study hard and go hc.. and suffer there for another 2 yrs. i love my life. Sunday, January 11, 9:36 PM
haiyo im in a sad mood now. and i was quite pissed ytd bcos of my mum. cos she's always so annoyed and grumpy.. she make me damn irritated.. and everytime i close the door, she like purposely come open it for no reason... just wanna get my attention? that's a very stupid theory of mine, but that's how it seems to be. and everytime she cough there's this loud groan aft it.. like trying to make us feel pity towards her and be nicer to her or sth? it's not working ... i get even more irritated everytime i predict her groan and she really groans. and somehow there are so many things im annoyed with my mum, and i pity my dad also... he like still can joke bout all her weaknesses.. is he used to it alr? i know i cannot stand it man. the way a short walk can make her tired, how she never exercises, how she nags, how she must have aircon in the car and cant even don't have aircon for 5mins, how she gets giddy so easily.... it's countless. yet she cooks, boils herbal stuff for us, washes everything, is almost always at home waiting for us when we come home... it's countless. i shldn't focus on her bad points cos it's unfair to her. but sometimes it's overwhelming i just want to shout at her alr. haiz. another week to drag through. zonals are here. |
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